Last night was th most painful day of my life, other than ah ma’s dismiss, i think this is th worst night in my 15 years . honey came to me, leaned on me and cried. The vet said old dogs are very faithful and in fact she is ancient already. She will not give up despite her pain because she can't bear to leave us.

The process of letting go is really so tough. The thought of not having you by my side anymore really send tears running down. I cant bear to lose you. But knowing that you are in pain, what can i do to relieve you of the pain?

Seems like PTS was the only choice. Go on honey, sleeeeeep. I know this will be long, you will not wake up. But it was tough fight you've had to overcome. Too tough it is.

Today is dedicated to honey ~ to grieve for her. I cant help but feel I have lost something so dear to me. I know some people might feel that its just a dog, or why is she so sad over a dog.

But honey isn't just a dog, she is everything. she is like Marley, a destroyer; destroy all the furniture's. my teachers scolded me for soggy exercise books, insisting that i played in the rain. when it was she who chewed on my exercise book.

but yet, when i was so down so down, she was the only one who accompanied me through the toughest and darkest moment, licking up all my tears, keeping me busy by sayanging her. I miss touching her, really miss her.

Honey, go find Ah ma, jia jia and darling. You will not be alone ok? i will tell Ah ma to treat you better. We will meet one day again, i know. Thanks for all the laughter and joy you have brought to us.


Rest in peace LOVE.